Metamorphosis: …the process of transformation from an immature form to an adult form in two or more distinct stages.

One minute I was watching a gigantic bug crawling up the post a few yards from the Allegheny River and 15 minutes later….Oh. My. God…..WTH?…I was watching something literally bust out of it like that scene in Alien? You KNOW the one I’m talking about, right?  Tell me that (see photo above) is not the stuff of nightmares.

Turns out it was a dragonfly, which is probably the coolest and most majestic of all insects. (Is it an insect? I don’t know..I’m not a bio major). But I couldn’t help but think that witnessing that metamorphosis seemed appropriate on the same weekend that Lauren graduated from High School and the country began to relax COVID-19 restrictions.

Transitions….metamorphosis…change…it’s often scary AND cool. It doesn’t have to be (and is not) one or the other. It can be two things at once.

I can be excited about never setting foot on Wattsburg Area School District property again and be sad that I will never/rarely ever set foot on WASD property again.

I can be excited that both girls are now college students and sad that both girls are now “adults.”

I can be excited that I have so much free time and sad that I have so much free time now (what to do…what to do…what to do with myself).

This is a transitional time in my life — I’m changing from involved mother of H.S. student to hands-off mother of college student. From fast, slender runner to aging, slower, slightly chubby runner. From young mom to middle-aged woman of grown kids. From child-bearing age to pre-menopausal. From ambitious to content with where I am. From working at home to working in the office every day.

Good? Bad?

In most cases, a little of both.  It’s weird. It’s nice. It’s a little uncomfortable. It’s fine. I don’t know. The older I get the less I know about anything.

But, regardless of how we feel about it, things change, metamorphosis happens, we transition.

The exoskeleton splits and something new emerges. Might be our best self. Just ask the dragonfly.

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About Just Write: Just Write is my adaptation of free writing, a technique in which a person writes continuously and quickly without little regard for spelling, grammar, or topic. It helps writers overcome blocks of apathy and explore everything from meaningful topics to mundane observations with the same effort and without the pressure of crafting perfect prose. I just start writing.